I must be in a self-searching mood here. Forgive me.
You would think four years into this homeschooling journey that I would have this licked.
It must be the case of the grass is always greener on the other side.
Someone always seems to be teaching better then you, have better books, etc.
When your kids are in public schools, you can blame anything and everything (just about) on the school or teacher.
When it's you, it's you. I think the most daunting task of homeschooling is finding the right curriculum.
Maybe by the time the kids are graduated, I will have found the perfect fit for each of them!